I feel like
I was the dog abandoned on the side of the road. 39yo adopted male. Finally found someone I thought I would marry. We had to go long distance due to her career path and my career change. I changed a lot of myself while we dated. We lived together. I made solid efforts supporting her nursing career. We had our moments like all relationships do. But once she left and we went long distance, it all changed. Its like nothing good I ever did mattered anymore. She chose to chase her dream job while I chose a career change that would better support a family (ex-chef). One thing led to another and she discarded me like a dog no longer wanted. Yet a few months earlier she asked me to marry her legally while hiding it from her family. I rejected, due to her family's beliefs. Yet she couldn't hide the fact that we lived together before marriage and her family did not approve. Lost, confised, etc.