Hey, it's my bday..
It's not as if no one wished me. My family did, I hugged my parents and my sister, too. But well, it's been 36 mins right now since the clock hit 12, and I don't know, I'm feeling some way- like I don't know how to describe it. Neglected..? Hmm most prolly not. Around 10, I messaged a friend group of mine saying, '@all, tomorrow's my bday, wish me at 12.' One just said 'okay', and started talking about something else regarding exams. I mean yeah, exams are important, and he might have hopped on the group chat to ask about something he already had in mind, but still, no one else said anything else. One of my closest friends, who I'm getting distant of now, just read the message(which I'm not even sure of, because he was just replying to the other guy's question regarding the exam). Now that I think so, maybe they're stressed about the exam.. well I'm not sure, but writing this feels nice.
And well, the thing is, no one actually wished me bday till now, it's already 12:40. My closest female online friend, who I talk to(on weekends), well, even she didn't. She must be in school actually, but I keep thinking, I scheduled a message for her last time, can't she do the same for me? Am I so unimportant then.. but well, at the same time, I feel good that they're going to realise it later, and feel bad, which makes me feel good. I'm not proud of this, but I'm here to express however I feel..