Weird Dream
omgggg this is so embarrassing!!! 😭😭
so basically i had a dream last night that my mind created a factive of one of my very close (maybe closest atp) friends. i think this dream mostly happened bc she basically expressed how much she loved me last night lol, so she was still like at the forefront of my mind ig. i've also (while awake) pondered an introject of her appearing, and/or me slowly adapting a lot of her like mannerisms and becoming concerningly similiar to her, so like this isn't a completely new idea ig? (don't think it's actually gonna happen though). but i just can't believe i had a dream of this! oml i feel so weird about this ahhhhhhhh.
also when i was like waking i tried not to go back to sleep/dreaming bc i liked the feeling of like having a system (and of dissociating), lowkey forgetting i do have a collective irl 💀 (don't really dissociate irl tho, i'm like always in front). didn't help that none of my headmates were around when i woke up except S (who's like always around), who was sleeping, so no one could tell me that i do have headmates. but i remembered quickly enough, and that was a nice realization.