I feel like a failure because I can’t make friends. I’m just so tired of being alone constantly.
It’s been an incredibly lonely few days, even more so than usual. My partner has been busy, so I’ve barely heard from him. He’s really all I got, so I’ve pretty much been alone for the past four days. It doesn’t help that I’ve also been sick which just makes everything feel worse.
I try to make friends, but it never works. Even if I do make friends, they never stay because I’m too fucked in the head. I’ve tried looking around on Reddit for people to speak to, but I think I’m horrible at selling myself to others, so all I ever do is get ignored. If anyone does try to talk to me, then it’s to try to get in my pants. I wanted to make friends at my college, but my partner was too jealous and didn’t want me to.
It just feels hopeless and like I can’t do anything right. I’m so tired of being constantly alone. I think I’m slowly starting to lose it. I wish my partner would pay attention to me. It’s like a barely hear from him anymore. I’m so lonely and I’m losing any hope I have to find others. I think I’m just too fucked up.