I lost my spark
Im 32 male, i feel like the last woman I was with was my one, I gave her my everything, I was so sure of us that I never expected this whilst short it was my most impactful relationship, ive had issues with abandonment since i was a kid and this feels like the straw that broke the camels back, she made me feel loved like ive never been loved before and made me realise that home isn't bricks and a roof but it was her, she healed me then one night decided to just cut me off, no arguments no shouting just cut me out of her life after a night with her friends.
the day before she was telling me how much she was looking forward to life with me in it, she has bi polar and was un medicated I think ultimately i know this is why but over the years ive always blamed myself for not being good enough and why would anyone stay as no one has previously, I was bullied since nursery, my mother isn't maternal and I have always been the rock, the person everyone talked to and cried to and bottled my own feelings up, I always lived life helping anyone and everyone that needed it, but this last breakup has killed this in me its been 2 months and its unbearable I feel hollow, like that part of me died and is never coming back, like every emotion I display is forced because really I just feel nothing she is still on my mind constantly, I find being single this age is such a lonely experience.
If youve been through this experience and youre through the other side id love to hear it and how you got through it.