How do I get through this?
Sorry in advance for any spelling errors or improper grammar. I am dyslexic.
A little over two months ago, my partner of four years broke up with me. For me, it felt very abrupt. I was not expecting it at all. We had been going to couple’s counseling to work on our communication but everything seemed fine the last few sessions. I was doing the work. At least, I thought I was. I thought things were getting better. Then one day, he broke up with me. We were supposed to go on a date that night. I got my hair done. I was excited. Now I feel like I’ve lost everything. I lost my home, I lost my dog, I lost friends, and I lost the person I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. I am now almost 30 living with my parents. I can’t afford to move out. I have nothing. I feel like I have to completely start over. I have no motivation to do anything. I get home from work, and I sleep. I’m so tired. I feel so broken. I feel so alone. I love my friends but they don’t have the emotional space to be there for me right now. I don’t want this to break me but I genuinely don’t know how I am going to get through this. I will because I have no other choice. I just don’t know how. I feel like I’m internally screaming at myself to get up but I can’t. I’m sad and angry all the time. My body aches. How long does it take to stop hurting so much? How do I get through this?