u/Neuroflora

After a really intense emotional day yesterday I've woken up with this really cloudy and calm feeling and I feel disinterested in my identity. My wardrobe is full of clothes I don't recognise and I've got transition tasks on my phone and hrt. Everything feels unreal and bizarre. I think I've been trying to transition over the past 2 years and I've come out to my family and friends but I can't remember it very well. Has anyone else experienced anything like this? This has happened before. It is really convincing to believe I am not trans atm but I don't identify as cisgender and I don't want to detransition. Wtf