u/NetherCookiez

So yeah, from the title, I almost got a job at some Call Center around my city. I learned about it from a friend of a friend of a friend and was intrigued because it was a Non-Voice account. I did the assessment and passed the initial interview and was up for a final interview in 3 hours.

Though for some details about the interview, the guy disclosed potential for non-consecutive day offs and that he'd reprofile me to a Purevoice account (Telco) and I just felt so shattered. I mean it's not that I'm not confident with my speaking voice. I speak English pretty well for someone who has no formal BPO experience. Though to be fair I do consume more Western media than I'd like to admit.

I don't know, just the thought of having to talk to people over the phone 5 days a week, 8 hours a day at night with the potential of day offs that aren't consecutive just killed me. And it's not like I badly need the money too. I'm not really after a huge paycheck. I just wanted something more manageable I guess? Something to do to take my mind off things.

After I rejected and left their hub, I did feel a sigh of relief. But the more I walked home, I also felt like I was letting everyone around me down. It doesn't help that someone I had the joint initial interview with went "Uy, bakit ka aalis? Ang sayang mo naman" before I left the hub. And I guess deep inside me right now at 9 in the morning just feels disappointed. Cause now I'm back to almost doing nothing for the summer.

I think I'm being too idealistic. I mean it is my first time applying for a job. I mean it's also not my first job too. I had this WFH thing handling emails at the comfort of my home. Maybe having that as my first job experience (this was also years ago na) just set some kind of bar for me too. One that I'm trying so hard to set.

Or maybe this is something a little deeper. Idk, SHS me would've killed to get this opportunity and now I'm in College and throwing away so many opportunities.