I'm dying for a romantic relationship and yet when someone approaches me, I chicken out. Why?
I've noticed this pattern happening EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. Literally I've never dated anyone, not in highschool, and not in uni (I'm 22) either.
Living in a country where I have a language barrier doesn't help the case. Being gay already reduces my chances by almost 70% too.
I started putting myself out there only last year, and since then, I've matched with a lot of ppl, but as soon as they ask me out I chickened out. For sex, I'm fine. But, if it's a date, the anxiety of weather they'd like me enough, makes me cancel the plan.
For example, I have a uni crush, and he happens to be gay too. Our positions also match. And I hit me up on Instagram and made it clear that Im into him. And he also reciprocated more or less. But then when he asked me for a ice-skating date, I got so nervous I said no. Also, he is stuck up on his ex, so maybe in the back of my mind, I was like I don't want my first relationship to be a rebound one.
Another example, another person, we met on Grindr (not met physically yet), but since he was not my type, I asked him if he wants to be friends (I had no gay friends so), and even when we talk on ft, he sometimes hits on me, but I ignore them.b
Is something broken in me? Seriously, pls tell me it gets better if I change my country again (I even chose a field where it's super difficult to get a job abroad, needs endless qualifications)?