Venting abt my experience/ looking for people with similar as mine
M23. I always had a bit feminine, submissive energy in me. I am not totally feminine but there is this part to me. Also i think i look like regular dude.
Since kindergarten i had difficulties with making friends. When my puberty hit I was amazed by women. I was fantasizing a lot abt them and abt my female classmates. I always wanted to be a bit dominated by them. I was wanking a lot to this fantasies at that time.
Later, in high school i still had difficulties with making friends. I never could get along very well with my male classmates. I always felt a bit alone. When i was finally accepted in popular male group i was so thrilled to have some friends. I remember after some party when my friend paid attention to me I tried wanking to him when i got home. First it felt really weird for me but since than my fantasy for sucking cock has developed. I never wanted anything more like anal etc. Simultaneously i still was fantasizing abt women.
Since that time nothing really changed. Most of the time i am still a bit socially awkward. I still fantasize abt woman romantically and sexually. But i also have really often this desires abt men that i described above.
I guess i just want to ask if somebody has similar experience? Do you think i am bi or something else? Do you think i just messed up myself throughout my school years experience? Thx for all answers.