I usually like to put my hair up in a kind of high ponytail and add two strands of hair in front of my face b/c I think I look chopped otherwise, but then I feel like I look like a pick me and ppl think I'm trying too hard.
I know this sounds kinda dumb, but I've had a crush on this kid, let's call him J, for about 2 years now. I like him ig cus he's popular and SUPER good at basketball, but not popular in the deuch bag way, and he's not like begging for attention like a lot of other boys in my grade. He's kinda just chill. But he started flirting with this other girl, so I accepted that he probably didn't like me. So I started paying more attention to this other boy, A, and it felt a little different whenever I saw him. I think I started liking him because in gym my teacher made me do 10 pushups in front of our group, not the whole class thankfully, but I thought I saw him like take a glance at me as if impressed? Even tho I can barely do 10 pushups. But then the other day, my friend and I were goofing off, and the first guy was at my table, and my friend accidentally threw a pencil, aiming at me, but hit him, and he grinned, I think, I couldn't really tell, but I started being like wait maybe he does like me? And yeah, this is probably stupid, but it feels bad to have two crushes, and the second one is kinda mean to my friend, but she doesn't care, and I feel like I like him more, but I'm not ready to let the first guy go. I've changed who I am a lot for the first guy, joined basketball, played saxophone, joined track, stuff like that, and is it all a waste?