u/MysteriousTea6517

I’ve got a couple questions

Does anyone have any filter blockers for movies and tv shows? Like things that blur out sexual or nude content. I’m sure it would still be triggering but I’m just curious, I’ve seen that people will post episodes with time stamps so you can skip, but I’m looking for more like something you can install and watch through? Idk. I doubt it exists but if it does please point me?

My partner used to masturbate to my body. In person. I know to some this probably sounds weird and it was way way before d-day, we were very young like 19? But sometimes he’d wanna get down, I wouldn’t be so in the mood, and he’d ask if he could jerk off and touch my butt or kiss me or whatever. I didn’t mind, in fact I quite liked it, and since there were no pixels at all I don’t really see the harm, but maybe I’m missing something? Albeit maybe a little weird, would it be a problem given context of a porn addiction? It’s not like it’s a kink that carried on or anything, it was just an occasional thing. Would it be weird NOW, as actual adults aware of a PA?

I think that’s all I have for now but I might post more as I think of them lol

Saying, like seriously speaking out loud “I’m going to try really hard not to masturbate for an entire week.”

What 🫪🤣 So first off, every time you were gonna “try really hard to stop” before, you admit you didn’t try? A WEEK is supposed to be an accomplishment? You haven’t gone a WEEK without in the past 9 months we’ve been living together again?????? That’s crazy. We’ve gone without sex for over a week 5 times in that time, but you haven’t gone without other women once during that. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.

I can try and try and try to act like I don’t care about it, but I’m so deep stuck in this. I have sunk into this deep deep depression so quickly, a year I was holding it together, my mental health felt like I’d never been better, and then suddenly it hit like a brick in my stomach and I can barely get out of bed. Im suffering, and I’m making myself suffer. I just can’t believe he got another year of my life begging me to stay and making all of these promises, none that were ever kept. I hate him. I hate him for doing this to me. I hate him for the constant lies about EVERYTHING, making me feel like I can’t trust what’s right In front of me, I hate him for making me so insecure in my own skin and I hate him for stealing my youth.

Anyways. Yeah. I’ve been crying for days. He keeps acting like I’m crazy, what could I be acting like this over. Years of my life taken from me.