im so confused
you came up to me, complimented me, and we had a quick chat. i didn‘t really think much of it until i got home.
i've been in a bad mental space for years now, and i both look and feel at my worst right now. it just confuses me that in all those years of not taking care of myself, i only got complimented on at my worst--messy bun, random T-shirt, and shorts,* peklat *everywhere, and with the biggest weight gain of my life.
so a part of me wants to thank you, na para bang may nakakakita pa rin ng silver lining, ika nga. but another part of me feels confused about how all of this happened. was i about to be scammed? was i acting apprehensive towards you? was it really just a regular awkward chat? was this just a dare? ano ba 'tong isip ko. sobrang unusual kasi ng ganitong pangyayari sa buhay ko (lmao), but i also don't really mind that nothing will come out of that one short conversation. that's just how it is.
i guess ang conclusion lang natin for today is: i need to ask my psych if i need to change the dosage for my anxiety meds. and sorry if i acted rude...