u/MyVisualExpression

Its already such a dominating feeling leaving that exam, theres nothing really that can prepare you for it. I studied for hours, weeks, and still I left there quite sad. At first, I thought it went okay.. then I googled many questions and realized I got the answers wrong! I was so annoyed with how they sort of confuse you... I had been told it wasnt the case. But, I beg to differ. Anyway, to keep some sanity forget googling stuff.. you cant do much now and the stress does not need to add up!

We’ve been together 13 years, and honestly the first 6 years were really hard. There was a lot of infidelity, partying, and unhealthy behavior on both sides. A few years ago we decided to leave all of that behind and try to rebuild our relationship. Then we had our son, and for a while it really felt like things were finally coming together. When I started hygiene school two years ago, he financially supported me through it, and I’ll always appreciate that. But emotionally, I’ve felt very unsupported. A lot of my hard work gets minimized or turned into something he takes credit for, and over time I’ve realized how draining his narcissistic behavior has been for me. Today he called me a bitch, and although he’s said hurtful things before, something about today just clicked. I realized I genuinely do not like the way I feel in this relationship anymore. The hard part is that we just bought my dream house, I graduate in three weeks, and our families are completely blended. I have two older sons, he has one, and together we’ve built a life that affects all of them. I’m terrified of disrupting their lives or having them resent me for leaving. At the same time, I know I need to be realistic. I need time to get financially stable and prepare myself before making any major decisions, but I also don’t want to stay so long that I get even more emotionally trapped or lose myself trying to keep everything together. I think I’m starting to accept that I may need to slowly build toward leaving, and that realization is heartbreaking and overwhelming.

My son is diagnosed with severe depression/suicidal.. he is in therapy but we have decided to go a step further and find a medication that might help him more. He is very self critical, and a over thinker.. gets very frustrated over the simplest of things. Has body dysmorphia and is insecure. He recently picked up weed and then decided against it as he said "smoking isnt good either." Even though it did help his mood, he doesnt like the addiction and unhealthy aspect of it. Getting him to agree with antidepressants was hard in itself. Weed also helped him with gaining weight, and since he stopped, he has lost alot. He really wants to gain wait. So, I am looking for something that can help aid his depression but also stimulate hunger.. I read that this is often a side effect. But, in his case a wanted affect. Reccomendations on medications would be amazing!!