Confused and thrilled
I’m 25F, in a healthy relationship with a really loving guy. But something happened recently that I can’t stop thinking about.
I went to a nearby spa just to relax. The place had dim lights, soft music, very cosy vibes. The reception guy was extremely attractive. When he came closer to explain the packages, my heart started beating so fast. He stood very close, speaking softly, and I suddenly felt so aware of myself.
Then he said the service would be done by a male masseur. I got shocked for a second… but I still said okay. I don’t even know why.
The whole experience felt so thrilling. I haven’t felt that kind of rush in a long time. I felt nervous, excited, almost breathless. Even now when I think about it, I feel that same heat.
I love my boyfriend. But I can’t lie… I enjoyed that excitement more than I should have. And that’s what is making me feel guilty.