(img unrelated) im currently in 11th(pcm) and im interested in computer science field i wanna know what are the job options for me and how can i achieve them like a roadmap. pls help as im very introverted to ask anyone elder and i dont even have friends or anyone trusted to ask out
so basically i met a girl online then we started texting regularly and i was unable to understand that she started loving me she said it to me multiple times but i though she was joking because she used to joke and flirt with me and i was looking to her as a friend only.
So im Breaking the story in total 3 times she blocked me:-
first time she blocked me(on insta) then i asked her on whatsapp why you blocked me she said youre not seem intrested and not giving me attention then i said but we're just friends na why you blocked then she said nothing we started talking normally again then the next day she blocked me again just for fun and then apologized but i cried genuinely when she blocked me then everything went normal again then
the final day she talked to me and was laughing and all then at around 11 pm she did a video call but i was unable to pick it because of family reasons so she started acting the same way "why your ignoring me" i even told the reason still she was not understanding me and then said i did "pyar ka izhar many times but you never did you dont love me" then i said i was talking to you as a good friend and nothing else then she said final bye and apologized saying "thanks for handling my mood swings, talking to me" i even asked her that we can still be friends again if she want but she denied and the next day she blocked me on wa and deactivated insta even though she said she'll not gonna block me
. The plot: After 3-4 days i got a random message from a boy and i talked to him and got to know that she ghosted everyone and gave my no. to them and said contact to me here and the guy also told me she was crying when he last talked to him. so thats the whole story.
and im aware of the fact that i simped alot here and she was very toxic, mean and moody girl.
so as of now its been around 1-2 weeks and i miss her alot im feeling this way for the first time in my life so i dont know how to deal with it.
any advice, suggestion or criticism is accepted as it will improve me for future.
i have some questions :
should i try to contact her again ?
should i apologise to her?