International long distance sexless marriage With my (26f) husband (26m) divorce?
I think I want to end my marriage. But I don’t at the same time, but I’m tired.
I’ve been with my husband for 2 years married but 6 years total. We started dating online during Covid, and we generally see each other every six months for a month at a time usually.
I love him and he loves me. He’s a great guy, all my morals align with him. He’s been nothing but kind. We agree on everything in life, our wants, goals.. But we don’t have sex. First time we met in person (2021 Christmas) we almost did it, but he was too nervous (he doesn’t like his body). After he went home, he eventually admitted he has never had sex before. I told him that’s okay, and he explained he was uncomfortable with his body and wanted to lose weight before anything.
Years went buy still nothing. But I loved him, we talked about marriage, him wanting to move here (USA), me agreeing. We kind of mutually decide to get married so we could start that process. One of his trips here we got married in the US. Nothing fancy, wore regular clothes, eloped I guess it’s called. (We never got married in his country) We’ve been married two years now and we waited that long to file paperwork because of some things regarding visas it seemed like a better option to apply after we were married for two years. We still have not filed that paperwork, we’re about to currently. Possibly.
In that time I myself lost 90 pounds, he didn’t yet which was ok (I am attracted to him but he still feels uncomfortable he says he’s attracted to me) I thought me doing it would help.
He constantly has anxiety, asking me if I want him to move here. I always said yes, but now I’m contemplating. We had a long chat about it today and it was the same “I just want to lose weight” we talked about how our relationship just feels like we’re best friends only and not coupled because we don’t do intimacy.
I just don’t know what to do anymore, we communicate these feelings and talk but I just don’t know if I want to do it anymore, I’m tired.
Can anyone offer advice