You did help me more than anyone ever could have done.
You can't blame me for loving you after everything you did to help me, it doesn't have to be a romantic love.
Let me keep this feeling of admiration and love, I can't turn it off or make it go away.
I won't let it ever hurt or break your boundaries you know that.
You finally see what you missed. How could i not see it was so obvious and now it's too late.
All your favorite likes, wants and quirks, burnt into my mind.
I can see now, what you did was still unfair and at the wrong time, a very very wrong time.
The pain won't stop.
No way someone could like me like this right?
Impossible I thought
How could I be so silly
I would do anything to smell the Cedar wood and have a fruit tart with you. I need to understand what happened to me or I can't go on. Wherever you are I'll go to you now. I just need God's help, please reach out to me, it's my last and only request. I'm falling apart.