Hi! I am 20M and 2 years ago I was a young, vibrant, and dreamy freshman. I was elected block president and joined many orgs and has lot of friends like a lot and it led to my downfall. Since bagong salta ako sa college and was still immature up until now parin naman. I slowly lost friends through misunderstanding, lack of communication, and many more.
Pero Irresponsable rin kasi ako I was always procrastinating my tasks and complaining it, flaunting my position and oo kasalanan ko and I also tried to explore sexually and dahil people pleaser ko I don’t know how to say no to tasks oo lang ako ng oo.
Apparently sabi ng friends ko may bo raw ako ako well true naman kasi outfit repeater since nagtitipid ako sa laundry. I angered my exfriend and he is still angry with me he avoids me and refuses to talk to me and syempre kasama na ang buong friend group. Kasi mali naman talaga ako since dapat magkadorm kami but I ghosted him and need na magdownpayment sa money.
And there it was all my flaws and insecurity this university really humbled me.
Pero there was one thing na magandang nangyari. I tried to change and I am still trying now I joined only one org and prioritized it.
I am a Medic and soon to be RMT and EMT, I started going to the gym, and still exploring sexually but responsibly. I started to say no and place my boundaries and it has never been better.
I have friends now I think? Though closed off pa ako kasi I don’t open up what I really think anymore and sobrang bigat tanging guidance office lang ang nasasabihan ko nito. My block still hates me and I am still yearning for that friend to forgive and reunite our friend group. maybe that will never happen?
I guess I should open up but there’s this fear of knowing me more may lead for you/them loving me less.
Ayun lang thank you po. Till next time :)