I (24, M) have progressed multiple online-only friendships (22 M, 24 M, 20 F, 25M, etc) to friends-wirh-benefits level, how lovey is too lovey?
I've been really enjoying getting close to a lot of my friends and getting to know them on what feels like a more personal level. Nothing bad has happened yet and I believe all of them have a pretty solid understanding of where my feelings lie, but I fear that one day all of my flirting is gonna blow up in my face.
I do not consider myself poly, and I don't consider any of these to be boyfriends/girlfriends, but they are people I want to feel loved and to spend the rest of my life with. Really it's just a title for me. I still call them pet names and flirt with them regularly.
I do intend to have a wife and a committed relationship someday, but I haven't met the right person. For now it just feels like this is the best way to get out the feelings that I have in an honest way. And everyone seems to be just about as affection-hungry as me, so it kinda just feels like symbiosis. I'm just wondering if anyone else has experienced anything similar or if this is some bizarre mix of autism and lust.