Hey, i am in recovery atm but still at the very beginning… i have extreme food noise and extreme hunger… when i give in those cravings, i end up „binging“.
Am i rlly sick? and what can i do against it? that pain the next day and digestion problems are killing me…
Although i‘ve been eating more in the last few days, the food noise is getting louder and louder everyday. i‘ve had multiple „binges“ and my digestion and body is fucked. i can‘t stop thinking abt eating. although i‘ve had a big eating attacks yesterday (my body hurts, extreme digestion problems, bloated af) i still have the urge to eat rn. and i know if i give in now, i wont be able to stop which would lead to the same pain tomorrow. idk what to do atp.
Hey, idk how this reddit stuff works, but I rlly need someones help or opinion so i thought i’ll just try it!
TW (numbers (cals of my binges, i hope this is okay in this channel… pls inform me if it isnt, ill edit it out)
For reference, my backstory:
I have been slightly overweight my whole life and i‘ve been trying to lose wheight since i was 10 or smth. In October 2025 I started a new wheightloss journey (i was 17 at that time).
I‘ve lost around 20kg in a healthy way. But somehow i kinda missed the turning point back to normal eating and js tried to lose a little more.
Breaking Point was February 2026, where my eating habits became more and more restrictive up until the point where i developed ana and ste VERY restrictively. My parents became worried as I was getting skinnier and skinnier. They forced me into Therapy at the end of April (april 22nd was the first „get to know“ appointment), where they told me that I was at an extreme critical wheight, and sent me into therapy. This was the day of my first „binge“ (900cals) I felt extremly bad and i was extremly bloated the next day and in severe pain. In the timespan of April 22nd and today (9. May) I‘ve had around 6 of those „binging attacks“ the first ones were nothing in comparison to the last 2 i had, and yesterday I‘ve had the worst so far (2000+ cals).
The day after those attacks is always totally horrible. My stomach is hard and bloated and nearly 3 times the size it usually is, I have extreme digestion problems (had to stay at home from school before because of it), every single move hurts and i feel horrible. The water wheight wheightgain makes me crazy ( although i had 3-4 eating attacks, my wheight still dropped since the first therapy appointment idk how this is possible) but today (post extreme binge) its gotten way higher… I understand that i need to gain wheight and muscle, and I rlly want to recover and develop a normal relationship with food, but it‘s so hard…
So here‘s where I need help.
First of all, due to those eating attacks i feel like i don‘t even really have anorexia and it feels like everyone thinks im sick but in reality i‘m not (!?), bc how tf could a real anorexic person eat such a large ammount of food?? I feel like I am not sick enough for that and now I am in recovery (since today), having to eat 3 meals and 2 snacks with my parents, while I shoved over 2000cals down my throat yesterday when i was alone at home… I feel like i don‘t even need recovery atp because all i think about is food… at night, its the worst… and i‘m rlly scared to develop BED, or that i can‘t stop those binges bc fuck that shit hurts so bad i feel horrible and i‘m in such pain😭
Second, i‘ve heard that those eating attacks are not real binges and that they‘re rlly common in ana recovery, so if you guys have any information or experiences you wanna share, pls do, i am desperate.
Third, do those eating attacks mean that i‘m not really sick?
Fourth, what can i do against those attacks? I mean ik that i need to recover due to my underwheight, but „binge“ sessions are lowkey not the right way to do recovery.
and lastly, if you have experienced this, how do/did you deal with the extreme bloating and the digestion problem the day after? and how long does it take until my body is normal again?
I hope i didn‘t trigger anyone! i‘d be rlly grateful if someone was able to answer my questions and help me, because i rlly don‘t know what to do anymore… am i rlly sick? do i have BED now? is recovery the right way to deal with it although i have those extreme hunger attacks? and what the fuck is happening w me?😩