Dating fatigue
I don't mean to sound like a baby but joined dating app for first time in life. Selected one man to have a date with. First date good--he was everything on my tick list-- but, by the second date, I could not be bothered to even go, zero excitement, I had to order in cookies to stuff my face while getting ready. Second date good, but had to stop off for cookies on the way home to blunt my ambivalence. Third date, cookies to get ready. he asks me to be his girlfriend. I get cookies on way home to blunt ambivalence. Fourth date, we disagreed on something and he broke up with me.
I seriously cannot do this a second time, let alone the next 10. I now understand why my ex just went back to his previous partner after we broke up. We used to be told, in order to find a partner you should be happy alone. I am so happy/fulfilled alone. Adding a man into my life would come at the cost of various other things I value. Why do we do it?
EDIT: Guyzzzz, the date was not mediocre. Please see that I said it was an "everything on my tick list" date. The point of my post was to ask for advice on dealing with dating fatigue.
EDIT2: Problem solved. I now realise I was using cookies to make up for the lack of high/motivation. He might have been right on paper but, if I am honest, my body was saying no and I was trying to trick it into saying yes. When the guy dumped me, high was restored, and zero desire for cookies once again.