I was never the person who believed in twin flame and things which exist beyond science until I got into spirituality recently in order to confront my past looking help. I went through multiple heartbreaks to a point I dont believe in love till I met him. A spark and connection in our very first meeting itself all to the point where I outrightly asked him to hangout with us as it is not something I usually do to random strangers. However, my sister also wanted him. and as I much as I wanted him I kept quiet as she showed obvious interest for the other.
Even though deeply I didnt accept it but I knew I had to come on surface with the reality so I made no approach but take peaks here and there. They started hooking up at the starting stage even though both did not enter a relationship zone and kept it very casual. Too casual in way that we sort of became a trio. Him and I would talk stupid shit and the more we talked we realised how similar we are to one another. The same mindset, emotions and thoughts. And the more we talked to each other it felt like I finally met someone who understands me with no judgement. like he cracked fourth wall. the surface layer I didnt want anyone to take it off. It felt like my walls are crumbling and how instantly he lights up my mood. It wasn't a direct cheating because we haven't really talked about having romantic emotions for one another and most of our conversations would be as trio except those one or two times when it felt like our energies blended so well together. I began having this sort of enlightenment where I was facing myself, my fears, my past.
I couldn't take the overwhelming feelings any longer so I confronted my sister about it which did not go well. I have an understanding that she's experiencing a sort lustful spark with him which she keeps calling it "flowery eyes" because she keeps forcing the idea I also have that sort of feeling with him. Even though the situation is way fucked I know my feelings very well even though it isn't right or might even be dirty I cant forcefully slam my own feelings of such a deep connection for something like "flower eyes".
Apart from this, I question science when im with him because sometimes it feels like the universe was putting as at a pedestal most of the time. Last night for his birthday I saw 111, 222, 333, 444, 555 - 555 being his birthday. He mention he wanted to be with me when it rains and it randomly rained when I met for 5 mins on a hot day, supposedly my last day meeting him. All before even we shared our romantic interest towards each other, a random guy (a dustman) who entered on a conversation with him and blessed us saying that we're destined for each other. It took me by surprise.
But despite all this im not sure if im just blindly believing in theory because there's no proof or science to back this theory. do such things exist. Because I feel such strong waves from him. I ended things with him for good because I felt like letting him go is for the good and the best. Please help someone thanks.