My husband and I are in a loveless, sexless relationship, and we have been for years. We have kids. We're not getting divorced for a multitude of reasons, which I won't discuss here because that's a conversation I will save for another day. If I'm being truthful, I fear the judgement that will come my way.
A couple of weeks ago, we decided to explore relationships with people outside of our marriage, agreeing that we both deserve to feel intimacy again. We will be allowed to date, have sex, etc. with the understanding that we will stay married.
My question is... what is this? I am so new to this world, and I am clueless about the vocabulary. Is this considered ENM?
I am an attractive woman in her early 40s. Is there any hope that someone will be interested in having a relationship with me given my situation? How do I even meet people? Are there apps for people who are "stuck" in marriages? We are keeping this new agreement a secret from those around us. I plan to go into any relationship honestly, though, clearly stating that divorce is not an option.
Please be kind, as I am new to whatever this is. I just want to be kissed, be held, and have sex again. An emotional connection would be a plus, too.