I consider myself ftm because I want to start taking testosterone, and I want top surgery. I like being called dude and other masculine terms. I don't mind he/him that much, but I prefer they/them. He/him doesn't cause me to have any negative feelings.
I just don't like the fact that I will have bottom growth, but I'm thinking about future nullification, so i don't see any huge problem there.
Look, I just want to be seen as a man or as someone who isn't a woman, I think that has to count in some way, right??
Do I belong in this community?? Can I share my experience here, or I don't count. (I'm trying to find any support I can because I am not doing well, mostly because of me not wanting this weird body with all the wrong parts).