u/Melodic_Escape5122

Hi, This is my second post here. I definitely did. Now, saying/assuming something like a parent loving a dog more than you might sound like a stretch to some people, But I believe it's true in my case. I believe my parents didn't want me, but a dog instead. My parents wanted me until I became a teenager and became aware of what they were doing to me. My Nmom especially made that one clear to me. Perhaps they prefer because a dog will love them no matter what... This one makes sense to me since my Nmom told me straight up that she doesn't like people in general.

I was just wondering if I'm not alone in this and if anyone else can relate.

(Throwaway account)

Recently, My Nmom told me she wished she could go back to the past to whoop my ass because I 'dont have enough respect for my elders', but this is the same woman who doesn't even respect her mother? Her mother is also a narcissist. Nmom said, "That's what's wrong with teenagers these days, They have no respect for their elders. We don't discipline them enough." Doesn't that apply to you too because I see and hear you disrespect your mother all the time even though you're not a teenager? Makes no sense.

(Teenager currently living at my grandma's along with my family)

edit: Rereading this, I realize I need to reword it because it can come off as wrong(?), I don't expect for anyone to respect a narcissist, but I just find it ironic(?) that I'm told to respect my narcissistic grandmother, but my mother doesn't have to and can disrespect her all she wants? However, I hope this doesn't come off as if I WANT to disrespect my narcissistic grandma, I don't, but I find it difficult to respect her too. I just don't say anything at all to her.