I need help i am lost
As my title says i truly am lost. My girl left me 7 months ago and for the first 5 months i assumed the worse so naturally after only 2 months of manifesting her return. When she agreed to talk she replied with all the indifference and coldness i saw those 5 months and shot me down in a rude way. Now for me that isnt a huge deal breaker. I know i want her,my feelings for her havent changed one bit and if i could i would marry her on the spot. But now that i am building my self concept, I find it hard to persist and get my mind stuck on what if it works out , i get emotional (like sad,upset and also angry at her, and i will say bad things about her when i am with my people). I dont think i can give up on wanting her so detaching is also hard for me since she is my main thought,the only positive thing i can say i have acomplished is just improving my looks but i was already better than most of the people she talks to so it really doesnt affect much.Please i need advice from yall here. I want to have my future wife come to me(i know she is bad for me for now,we can change that later).Thank you for reading this i am in your hands.