u/Melodic-Push-5124

I’ve been dealing with this for almost 10 years now, and most days I end up watching porn and masturbating more than once a day. At this point it feels automatic. If I’m bored, stressed, can’t sleep, or just alone, I go back to it.
What’s frustrating is that I’ve actually had periods of progress. I’ve gone days, even weeks, and once I got close to a couple of months. During those times I felt better, more clear, more confident. But somehow I always end up slipping back into the same habit, and it resets everything.
I really want to change. I don’t want to live like this anymore. I want to see real progress and actually move forward with my life.
The problem is… I feel like I’ve tried almost everything:
Watched tons of YouTube videos about quitting
Tried meditation, manifestation, and “staying positive”
Tried techniques like the 5-minute rule
Removed apps, used blockers, reduced social media
Subscribed to programs and paid resources
Got help from multiple people (around 5–7, including professionals)
And still… I keep going back.
The hardest part is that there’s still a part of me that wants it. Even though I know it’s not good for me, in the moment it feels like comfort or escape, especially at night or when I’m alone.
Right now I feel stuck and honestly a bit hopeless. Like I don’t know what I’m missing.
So I’m asking specifically:
If you were heavily addicted (daily or multiple times a day) and managed to quit for 3+ months or even years — what actually worked for you?
Was there a real turning point?
What did you do differently that finally made it stick?
How did you deal with that part of you that still wants it?
I’m not looking for generic advice — I’ve heard a lot already. I’d really appreciate hearing from people who were deep in this and actually got out.