My cat passed away and I don't know how to accept it.
I don't know where to share my grief. I feel like I need to express it out. Ang sakit lang that my baby boy, Taco, passed away because of a viral infection. He was just 9 months old. Di namin nahahalata na may jaundice siya, until dinala namin siya sa vet. Nung 2nd day, under home observation, bumabawi naman siya. However, nung 4th and 5th day, away niya ulit kumain, akala namin nasasawa na siya kaya we changed the flavor of the food, ayaw parin, we changed the brand, ayaw parin. On the day for his follow up check up, bumaba daw yung WBC and RBC niya. We know na ito na, hindi na niya talaga kaya. We didn't euthanize him kasi we want him to be comfortable in his last moment, and para makita siya ng mama ko. He died in my arms.
I still feel his presence. He is my emotional support, especially as someone na hindi mahilig mag share ng emotions sa iba. He loves cuddling and sleeping right next to me. I have 15 cats and I love them all equally, but Taco is something. He also knows to wait for his food kaya I trust him na iiwan lang food ko sa table ko.
I miss you, Taco. I will always love you.