Its been 15 months and I still doubt myself over whether it actually was SA. essentially, she was my first love, but after a long no contact period, she called me late saying she needed me and I picked her up. she told me how she was stalking me, and wanted to fuck me. I kept saying no to her after she repeatedly tried taking off my or her clothes, but eventually I kinda gave in to kissing her, but then she kept pulling my hand down to finger her, after 2-3 times she just grabbed my hand and fingered herself with my hand for 10 minutes or so
I felt like I just ”accepted my fate” and laid there, and at the same time I thought if I made a big effort to push her off me she was going to run out the car half topless (I couldn’t really move and she did eventually do that)
was this actually SA or was I right to think it was SA a couple days after?
edit: also worth noting that directly afterwards and 2 weeks afterwards she told me that she “knew I wouldn’t want to do anything but if she kept going then she knew I might give in to something”