u/Massive_Orange_6657

I made this post earlier but deleted it because I got paranoid that the person I’m referencing is gonna see it somehow. But I’m still super messed up over what happened so I’m posting again to get some comfort. I was drunk asf a couple days ago and idiotically posted a nude pic of me looking for an adult woman to chat with. I completely forgot about it for a few days and had my notifs turned off. But I randomly remembered so I hopped on my account around 1am last night to delete it. Checked my messages first and some random account had sent me unsolicited child p*rn. Like 20 videos. really messed me up. I’ve seen gore and stuff but I’ve never seen a young boy being r*ped. I clicked on the first vid just to see what it was then once I saw it was a child I blocked and reported the account. I have OCD so the images are burned into my brain and I’m scared and sad. I knew the world is evil but actually seeing it did something to me. I haven’t been able to sleep at all. I reported it to the cops but they said they don’t know if they can even do anything with only his username because I deleted the pics so fast. But it’s been consuming my mind I’m so scared and sad please help me out here. Like why would somebody do this. He/she must’ve spent hours upon hours digging the internet for those videos. I’m just disgusted and traumatized