Does anyone else struggle to do both work tasks and house tasks on the same day?
AuDHD, 33. I am not in complete burnout, but close. I am doing what I can to take care of myself and my apartment while also keeping my job.
I am fortunate to work remotely and for myself, so I have flexibility, BUT I am struggling with doing consistent, meaningful house work and chores. I struggle generally, but I especially struggle on days I work. It’s like I can’t even see the space around me when I am in work mode. Then I finish working, am completely exhausted, and THEN I see the state of my apt and get upset that yet another day has gone by where I haven’t been able to maintain things or effectively clean as I go. I know I shouldn’t be hard on myself, but it is frustrating to know what to do, yet not be able to do it or prioritize it with the limited energy I have (I am also chronically ill).
My boyfriend is kind enough to help me with some stuff when he’s here, but I really can’t seem to get much done unless I dedicate a whole day to house tasks. Which I have not had the ability to do the last few weeks because of family obligations. I normally spend a lot of Friday, Saturday, and Sunday trying to clean and get things in order. It just is never ending, I hate it. I wish I was more naturally organized. I wish I wasn’t so overwhelmed, tired, overstimulated, and constantly behind. It sometimes helps to remember I am AuDHD and it’s not my fault I am not very good at this stuff even when I try really hard, but that’s not comforting me much right now.
I don’t even know why I am posting. I’m just so damn tired of it all. I wish that everyday things were not so hard. NT people and able bodied people just don’t understand.
Thank you for being a place for me to share