Mother's Day is Hard
This day is the hardest day of the year for me. Because of nobody protecting me from abuse, I lost my reproductive ability by 14. I wanted to have children but was unable to. Also, I have to pretend to celebrate an abusive woman, who I know better than to be a mirror rather than a mask about who she really is. So I send her best wishes and betray myself. Despite gearing myself up for no contact, I am not just there yet. Also, today is the day when the world validates all those who refuse to see maternal abuse, by acting as if we all have a mother who deserves love. So many do not. If there is a problem, it must be our fault as a mother's love is a given. Consequently it's a day of quiet suffering for so many people. I sincerely wish there was more awareness of the pain this causes. I was wondering if anyone else felt the same. If you are, this stranger on the internet sends you love and this little post to let you know you are not alone and I see you.