I’M SO BORED
I am the most bored I’ve ever been in my entire life 😭 my son is 18m and I feel like I’m constantly doing the same thing all day every day. The same routine, the same messes to clean and meals to cook and nap time schedule to follow. I try my best to entertain him and keep the days fun for him, but it’s beyond boring for me which I know sounds selfish but hoping this is a place I can say that 😂 I love being with him all day and watching him learn and grow, but I feel like my brain is deteriorating by the minute, turning into literal mush. Going to stores or on outings is tough because he is wild and in a defiant stage, doesn’t like being in the carriage or holding my hand to walk 🫠 so it’s just stressful to try to run errands with him or taking him to kids places. My mom watches him one day a week but I spend that whole day catching up on everything I can’t do with a toddler. My husband works 5-6 days a week depending, we are both small business owners. I can only work during nap or at night which is rare since I’m so tired by the time my son goes to bed. I used to love my work it was my creative outlet but now it feels like just another thing to manage. I feel like I have no enjoyment or identity outside of being a SAHM. I am grateful for what we have and know some women would kill for this opportunity and that makes me feel guilty like I’m wasting it complaining. Can anyone relate or offer advice?