u/ManyNational2593

i broke up with my bf impulsively. fucking bad idea i know. i just got so hurt and freaked the fuck out and lashed out at him because i thought he was disgusted at me. i always read his tone that way. but this same thing has been happening weekly for more than a year. its all my fault and i DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. i just want him to be happy and he loves me but i dont know if im good for him. i try my best to take accountability and not lash out but its so hard its literally like something takes control of me i dont know. im in so much pain and he wont talk to me his last messages were just about wanting to be friends but its my fault. its my fault. i wish i was a better partner. or friend. whatever it is. i dont want to be me anymore