I’m an international student who moved overseas hoping to build a better future, but my past still feels like it’s holding me back. On paper, life looks okay — I have a good GPA, a solid friend circle, a healthy diet, and a decent part-time job. But internally, I don’t feel peace.
My breakup happened around 6 months ago, and at first it didn’t really hit me because I was constantly busy with exams, assignments, and work. But now that summer break started and life has slowed down, the thoughts are getting louder. I spend way too much time inside my own head.
I tried dating other people, but I kept looking for my ex in them, and that felt unfair and wrong, so I stopped dating completely. I quit alcohol and weed too because I genuinely want to heal properly, but no matter what I try, I still feel stuck in the past.
What scares me the most is that I’m slowly starting to push people away from me. It feels like I’m watching myself isolate more and more while trying so hard to move forward. Anyway, just needed to rant.