Basically went to the derm for my yearly skin check and showed him this new spot. He says it is probably a pimple and didn’t seem concerned. But it’s been over a month or two and it hasn’t went away. Curious if I should ask to see another derm or just monitor it for a couple more months?
I was raised in the Deep South as a southern Baptist. My father is a preacher so I spent the majority of my days in church as a child.
I went to college and ended up completing a masters in clinical psychology which changed my view of the world and spirituality.
I still believe there is a God. I have struggled with my faith for about 5-6 years because the churches I was raised in and things I was taught to believe felt like such fear mongering. My whole life I’ve just sat around and waited on God to punish me.
I still have tremendous fear around hell, the rapture, and the end times. I was taught that if you aren’t saved you burn in a fiery pit for all of eternity. The flames never end. I was also taught that Jesus would come back for the saved only. That would mean pets left behind to starve, cars to wreck, planes to crash. These thoughts make me nauseated because I become so fearful - of being left behind as well as being taken because I don’t want my pets to starve.
This has led to me becoming very emotionally shut off to religion/God and I struggle to have a relationship with him. I sit in church every Sunday and stare at the wall completely dissociating.
Can anyone offer any insight? I hate living like this.