u/ManufacturerFit5181

I guess I'm not done with this. Every time I think I have had enough of this it turns out I need a little more. I've had dommes in the past suggest I'll never be done, I'm too ingrained in the kink and it'll always drain me in the end. I am starting to think that might be the case. I'm feeling like struggle doesn't sum it up. I'm just a perpetual trigger waiting to go off and bounce forward to the next one until I blow it all. It's like a wonderful curse I'm stuck with in many ways

My domme is finished for the time being; she's got life commitments and so we are done. It wasn't a long connection and honestly she was great but not exactly the same heat I had from others. I have felt that for the last few, and I'm wondering if I'm losing my spark for this all. I've been having the same cravings I always do as far as what a domme helps with but I'm wondering if maybe I should find another way.

I've more or less lost control. I've spent my time on X lately and found myself scrolling dommes. I gave in last week. Twice. I gave in again yesterday. I feel like I have lost control lately and I figure it's almost easier to just give in sometimes.