u/Man_of_Culture6942O

I was around the age of 10. We had a live-in maid in our house at the time for babysitting as both my parents were people with time consuming careers. I was usually alone at home with the maid. She came to me one day, sat me down and told me she would show me something interesting. Curious to what this thing was I sat with her and she showed me porn ( with Bluetooth headphones of course). I didn't know how to react since I had no amount of knowledge on sex and she was sitting beside me. I don't remember what happened after that but I remember having sex with her on our parents's bed all day. This continued for around 2 months before the maid was fired due to unrelated reasons. I forgot about this little habit because I was still very innocent minded. When I got "educated" on the topic of sex this incident still didn't look back and think about what she did to me years prior mostly because of the me being busy as a student. 2 months ago I opened my journal to reminice about my younger years and read about what I did with her. I'm now 17 and don't know what to think about this. I remember that she even made a video of us having sex. How do I process this?