Can I get opinions if this is a covert narcissist?
I seriously need others opinions right now. Im on a huge hunch that my counselor is a covert narcissist. Counselors listen a huge amount and thats okay w me. I know its not related to the parent narcissist but Im in bad distress and need opinions, please hear me out.
Okay, so this'll be a little bit long and Im sorry, narcisssistic behavior signs have driven me crazy. Counselors listen and I get that. She doesnt really connect with me at all, doesnt ask questions if I bring up anything traumatic or personal. Shes looking at me like shes listening but I feel like shes stonewalling me. I have to run most of the session to bring up everything, but shes not connecting nor reciprocating. I asked a question (cant remember) The last session I brought up what I was dealing w dissociating. I just told her I wanted a professionals opinion.Only told me I was depressed and avoidant and nothing else useful. No insight, no useful engaging. And also, since I talk 99% of the time, she just comes out and say "you need to talk more" which I seen as a red flag to keep me scrambling. And seems like a whole lot of lying.
Ive asked her "Do you ever go through sympathetic and empathetic burnout?" And she said "if I did, I wouldnt work here". And "have anything a patient said to you thats ever traumatize you?" And gave a couple no's. "How do you get through the day?" And she said "I just focus on going home". These seem like black and white responses to me. And Ive asked questions that the answer seemed complicated and just didnt relate to the question too much. Always a short answer and doesnt go into depth.
Ive also had a couple of appointments w her where she was late in taking me into the office and I been waiting 10-20 minutes. Its felt like shes lying, like shes definitely cut me from any kind of connection.
What do yall think? Have yall experienced this type of behavior too? I have been feeling extremely crazy and been experiencing extreme dissociation. And an old trauma wound opened DEEP from a covert from betrayal.