u/MammothImportant4538

Hello fellow brothers,

I don’t even have the right to even express what I’m feeling right now or explain I’m evil I sincerely think I’m a bad seed since birth I don’t think I have ever done a good deed in my life I’m in a state where I’ve reached the highest of ghafla I’ve sinned too much that my heart is sealed I feel it deep down I’ve been unjust to people, done too many wrongdoings I’m worse than the devil I’m sure of that it’s actually crazy how a human being can be worse than the devil himself, I’m slowly rotting away I’ve been thinking about suicidal thoughts but I feel like it’s too easy that I’ve got to pay for the actions I’ve made here what I’ve done can’t be forgiven, slowly waiting for death