u/Mammoth-Secret-5893

I 24F have recently come to the realization that I'm not as confident as I've always felt. I've become extremely insecure and competitive. I have a feeling it strictly links to my relationship as retroactive jealousy takes over me It causes a lot of fighting in the relationship. Now I'm always comparing myself. And seeking constant validation. Even when everything else is fine. But even with my friends, I'm more competitive than I ever was and I've been tackling this feeling and accepting where it's been coming from. Which is my feelings of lack and the low self-esteem stemming from my relationship problems. it makes me want to isolate from everyone.

It doesn't make it easy that I have OCD. And the severity of my intrusive thoughts and emotions are heightened. i've made a list of affirmations only listen to happy music and watching videos about confidence and books. But it hasn't been stopping me from ruining my life..

hi, any books that would be good for a early to mid 20 year-old woman that struggles with confidence in her relationships with other people. Ones that are good for people that seem confident like don't directly feel bad about how they look or who they are but struggle with comparisons and interacting with people shrinking in public and triggers for insecure behavior, usually comes out in interactions with other people.

I keep asking questions about my boyfriend's experiences during our six month break up. We are back together now, but I've had a hard time with my self-esteem and confidence about his feelings towards me. I keep asking about who he hooked up with and why, and if it were better. This is affecting me, psychologically. Because even if I don't ask I'm still thinking about it. Anytime I watch TV shows where things like that occur. Anytime I think about masturbating I just think about other girls. Anytime my boyfriend kisses me. I just pictured him kissing other girls. It's actually torture. But then I get so obsessive over it that I hyper fixate on comparing them and us. We've been together for almost 4 years and just recently got back together this year. This is the only problem of our relationship. But some of the experiences he's had with other girls during our break up is very cruel to me.

I know I should stop asking but genuinely how do I keep my mouth shut? How do I stop this? Also, please note that I have OCD.