How do you stop going back when it's your mom?
I keep forgetting things she's done to me and details and start to believe she isn't really abusive. Then I let my guard down and she hurts me again. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm living life numb and depressed. I feel like I'll be a villain for not talking to her anymore because she hides it to most people. More recently my step-dad tells me he doesn't even know if she loves him anymore. Whenever I'm over she's always yelling at him or making a snide comment or telling him to shut up. My whole family just smiles and moves on like nothing ever happened and we all love each other. I just don't know what to do. Whenever I try low contact she becomes so clingy and I feel so guilty and mean. I can't rationalize it in my head because I legitimately can't remember the things she did or said to me that was bad. and when I've tried to confront her before she cried and said she's the worst mom ever. It just sucks. I wish she would stay loving and get better 😥 She even vents to me about the same kind of abuse she endured from her mother and it's just ridiculous. Idk just needed to vent bc I'm in my apartment alone washing dishes and having a ptsd episode over a sponge triggering a memory. I know I won't feel good no matter what happens 😞