u/LynxOk8932

This will be a bit of a ramble, so bare with me. This is my first time reaching out to the public about this, it's gotten so bad. Helps me feel better talking about it. So I've had a long history with opiates. Since 2012 to be exact. I have 15 years of restaurant/cooking experience. So naturally drugs and other toxic vices were flowing like a river.. everywhere. Got introduced to norco 10's, got instantly hooked. Then the somas appeared, so that poly drug combo was my regular. Then Roxy 30 blues, and then rare IR Opana 10's before they vanished.

I was in deep. Opiates were my heaven that were also my hell. Then I discovered kratom once the connects moved on, 10 years ago. Legal opiate-like high?? Hell yeah!

So began a long term relationship... Fast forward to 2024, went to rehab for poly drug use of muscle relaxer/tapentadol combo tabs, benzos, lyrica, modafinil, and massive doses of kratom. Went to sober living afterwards and eventually caved in after relapsing on Feel Free shots and MIT45(SP?) shots. My first introduction to kratom extracts. Big mistake. Got booted out because they have mitragynine dip stick tests.. Stayed clean for a short time finding a new place, then I found 7OH.. Crud, crud, crud...

I screwed myself, digging myself deeper and deeper into a hole. Been taking it for almost a year. 150mg for a long time, but with stress at work the tolerance skyrocketed. Last few months it's been at 400-600mg daily. Distancing myself from friends, life has just been trying to maintain normalcy at the expense of my mental and physical health, worst of all financially. Literally chained with iron with this addiction and I'm absolutely fed up with it because I want a happy life. Thanks to Reddit I discovered the Bernese method. Because I'm a cook that works 5am-1pm.. picking up the slack because of lazy coworkers.. very physical work, lifting 50 pound boxes and prepping in a 34 degree cooler, then dealing with the heat of cooking, constantly on my feet, going back in forth between cold and hot...interesting with people all day in a "drug free" work place. I can't cold turkey with a tolerance that high because I can't afford to call in because I get PWD badly..thankfully I have a surplus of Suboxone 8mg because I stopped taking it to go back to the 7OH. So over the next several days I'm gonna start it, won't be perfect because I have the tabs not the strips, but I'm tired of living this hell and I want all of y'all to conquer this addiction as well. It's ruining my life. For those of you interested I will keep you guys updated.

Taking my first 2mg dose tonight, then 2mg in the morning and another in the evening while working down my 7OH doses and increase my sub dose them taper as fast as I can off that. Thanks for hearing me out, it feels good to finally lift this weight. I pray to God it all works out.