u/Lucky-Four4

Hearing him talk about his ex and say how much he wishes they could start again. Watching him smile the brightest while he talks about her.

Hearing him say he is not ready to love again. So ano yung mga gabing magkausap tayo? Ano yung mga I love you at I miss you na yun? Ano ako?

And the most fucked up thing is I am hurting so much I can feel my body shaking pero hindi ko maiiiyak. Crying always helps me let go of the pain pero hindi ako makaiyak.

I went through my contacts looking for a friend who'd listen just to realize I have never had that kind of friend. I am that friend to everyone else. Tangina.

No one told me how painful it is to connect to someone so deeply at a time when I know I don't want to be in a relationship yet. I want to focus on myself, my career, the goals I have written in my mini notebook.

I don't want to let you go, but it is very unfair to the version of me that waited for the time I'll put myself first.

So, I am so sorry. I can't choose you yet because I know myself. I like giving every piece of me hanggang walang matira sakin because when I love, I love with my everything. But I promised myself that this year will be about fulfilling the promises I made to myself.

I love you in ways I'll never be able to put into words.