Trying to gain weight but it’s scary
I’ve always been extremely underweight, and growing up I was always ridiculed and mocked about my lanky physique. In highschool and college I started to try and love my body for how it was and focusing on the positives of being too skinny. Now I’m trying to workout and need to go on a bulk but the thought of losing those positives that have gotten me thru everything scares me so much.
I’ll start to see some progress and weight gain but the second I feel like my waist is getting bigger or my collarbones or jawline is less defined I freak out and go back to regular habits. Is there any way to get over this fear or a different mindset to achieve idk.
It also doesn’t help that the everyone is on an ozempic diet and all the female celebs are getting so skinny. It makes me feel like oh I already kinda have this so why should I change it. But the thing is I also know that it’s unhealthy and will negatively affect me in the future. Even now I feel like my legs are so weak, they shake when I go down the stairs and lifting my arms up to the steering wheel tires them out 😭. And I’m in my early twenties right now, so I really need to lock in if I wanna live.