My girlfriend of almost 5 years broke up with me a while ago. Ever since I’ve been feeling empty and lonely, I already didn’t have many friends and the ones that I did have don’t understand my feelings and have unknowingly said hurtful things about the situation.
I feel like my life is just: wake up, work, eat, workout and sleep on repeat. I’m somehow deep inside a little proud of myself that I haven’t locked myself in my room and am still going to work, building on a future that right now feels nonexistent. I have no more goals in life and am just kind of rolling along with time.
I’ve tried dating apps and actually had a fwb for a while but it just felt wrong so that ended and I have no interest in trying again any time soon.
The reason I make this post is that yesterday I saw some random YouTuber talking about how he felt horrible the week after his breakup and then slowly got his life back on track. This was a big reality check for me and I kinda broke down because I realised it’s been over 5 months already and those months are just wasted on feeling depressed.
That’s five months I’ll never get back and I still feel like it’s getting more and more lonely and depressing.
I guess posting this is both a way to vent and a way to ask: what do I do now?