u/Low_Courage_1072

I am so over the conversation I had last night.
Since the start of April, we’ve been arguing a lot like screaming and leaving the house in a fit of rage kind of arguing because I told him I opened up about his addiction to my therapist in my last session, and that night I found him stalking the girl who works at the A&W beside his work.
He admitted to me that he’s been going to see her because he’s so unhappy with me, because I’ve been so miserable to be around since my father passed away and it’s “clear I don’t trust him.” He said that the 18 year old at A&W is “nice to him” and that he doesn’t have to play “Russian roulette” every time he sees her, while he has to “mentally prepare himself to come inside after work because he doesn’t know what kind of mood I’ll be in” while I’m grieving.
I’m 21, and people say I’m too young for him (he’s 25). I went to high school with this girl, for the record.
After that, I told him I want to work on our relationship, but he needs to stay away from that A&W and I will be checking his bank statements.
One of the big issues I’ve seen all the women in this sub have is their PAs telling them they don’t “initiate,” but when they do, they always get rejected.
I bought some lingerie, I shaved, and I sent him a picture wearing it from the other room. He walked in and started asking how I “liked it” and if I “think it’s cute,” just standing there asking all these weird questions while I was literally trying to seduce him almost like he was trying to avoid actually having sex with me.
So I asked him what he thought about it, and he said it looked a little cheap. It was (I got it off SHEIN )because high quality lingerie is expensive, and I definitely don’t have the sex life or the money to be spending big on lingerie.
He said he “appreciates” the effort but he’s not in the mood.
I’m actually going to start pulling out my fucking hair because what the actual fuck.