u/Low_City_9511

So Im 22M and been addicted to this shit for last 11-12 years. I truly never had a gf in hs and even in college i don’t. I am not (atleast what some people have said) unattractive. Also, i am a pretty social person. I have plenty of female friends in college, so i believe i can atleast talk. But when things go romantic, i feel totally disinterested in every girl i know. Even the ones i feel genuinely beautiful, i never make a move to express my feelings. But when i see couples around me, i immediately get triggered. Nowadays, it has become so worse that even watching normal tv shows and see characters kissing makes me feel worthless as a man. I was pretty normal for all years, but nowadays it has gone to an insane level where my mood, energy everything is low all the time and i feel unmotivated for anything in life. Life seems meaningless and bleak. My addiction went from 1-2 a week to 4-5 times a day. After constant feeling of worthlessness i decided that maybe cutting porn would fix me. So i lowered my consumption.