u/Low_Athlete1075

Ive never posted on here but I guess I thought id fuck around and find out. A little background. I 22F have been married to my husband 24M for almost 2 years in August. We knew each other for a month before getting married. We've been through some crazy shit in the past 2 years and its only made us a stronger couple. But we've had a recurring issue. Me wanting more. A couple months after we got married I told my husband I wanted to have a 3 way (MMF) Wanting a 3 way became wanting a bf and so on. My husband supports me even though it hurts him to think he isn't good enough for me. And he is! My husband outshines every human being in the world to me, but I keep coming back to the same issue in my mind as him. Why? Why do I want more? He even tried being intimate with another woman without telling me just to try and understand why I want more. Ive wondered if its a mental thing, and have gotten even more concerned when in the past 6 months it randomly became unbearably painful to have sex with my husband. Tests come back that I'm fully healthy. So I'm starting to think its a mental thing. Maybe I'm stressing out too much that I cant enjoy it. Ive only ever been monogamous in my past relationships but was severely neglected, but my husband treats me like a queen. So I dont understand why I never had this issue before now. I would love to get anyone's insight on this..